Finished Vet Tech Assitant school. Home Heather care aide, working with a dimentia patient, dealing with my dad's dimentia too! Gardener, housekeeper for many disabled friends. Forgave myself so I could try living instead of failing at dying for 40 yrs. Survivor of narcissistic, satanic, sexual and emotional and mental abuse. I question everything. But not out loud. Research is power! Truth is power that can get you killed. But free! Spiritual , Love God and the blood of Christ that runs through me. Looking for allies, help for I am fighting all myself!